March 2015 – Letters to my Children…

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Dear Daddy’s Little Princess and Mummy’s Little Soldier,

You are my world.  I never thought I would have the opportunity to be a mother and I can honestly say that it is the most amazing feeling I have ever experienced.  You are my miracles.

I want you to understand why I am writing this blog.  I want you both to grow up understanding the hard work and commitment it takes to hold a family together.  I want you to know that the people you love and the relationships you develop will be the most important part of your life, far more important than anything you’ll ever own.

Your Daddy and I have been through many difficult times, but we have always managed to get through them.  There were many times when it would of been easier to walk away but our love kept us strong.  When someone you love has an addiction, you either walk away or support them.  I will support your Daddy no matter what because I know that underneath it all there is still a good person who will come back to us someday.

I know it has been difficult for you both, but I promise I will do everything I can to keep you safe.  I will be a more patient mummy and I will learn to deal with my resentment towards your Daddy which causes a bad atmosphere for us all.  I will change myself to influence those around me.

I’m feeling really positive about it.  I know that our future is going to be great!

Lots of love

Mummy.

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8 thoughts on “March 2015 – Letters to my Children…

  1. Oh gosh this almost had me tearing up. I have walked in your shoes, and yes I stuck it out, and yes the changes were made for the better. There are ways to deal with the emotional fallout, other than suck it up. Try not do that, because the stress turns on you inside. I wrote a great deal, mostly messy scribbly rants that I later burned. It helped get it out of me onto a piece of (unsuspecting) paper. Do what you need to do. I’m with you. 🙂

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    1. Thanks. I know things will get better. I have to get passed the feeling that I’m giving in and having to be the one to make all the changes when I feel it should be him (or both) of us. He’s not ready to do that yet so I have to thinkof the greater good.

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      1. There will be many times when only one of you has to take the reins, instead of it being an equal effort. I often think of my (28 year old marriage – eek!) as being a ship in stormy sea. We each take turns to bucket out the water regardless of who poked the hole in the bottom of the deck, until we reach calmer waters. You’ll find in time that the “ship” gets stronger and stronger and less likely to flood. Just my analogy, for what its worth. 🙂

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  2. That’s a beautiful letter to your children. I hope they get to read it one day and see how hard you worked to make your family happy. It’s good to see that you’re feeling positive about your future. x

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